Ep.111 Reclaiming Your Wildness Without Losing Yourself

Hello, hello, hello, everyone.Welcome back to another episode of Reconnect With Plant Wisdom.It’s me, Tigrilla Gardenia.So lately, I have been thinking a lot, like a lot, about wildness.Not, not just the kind that, like, howls at the moon or runs barefoot through fields, though I am all for that.I’m talking about the kind of wildness that pulses quietly underneath your skin.You know?That kind that knows who you are beneath all the roles and the rules and the routines, that kind that, of wildness that just can’t be domesticated no matter really how hard they try.And so, uh, this conversation started like all the good ones do, as a thread running through the interviews I’ve been having for the podcast.first, in episode 107, I was talking to Wendy Woods, and I touched on eco-feminism and mythology and how wildness has been labeled as dangerous and untrustworthy, even immoral in so many cases.And then there was that moment with, uh, Eric Inman in e- episode 110 where we talked about the flow and rivers and how movement is both power and presence and that wildness that comes through the merging.I’ve also recorded some that haven’t even come out yet with, like, for example, Ellie Yule and Eleanor O’Hanlon, that brought me into contact with other aspects of wildness, like wildfires and weeds and wild women and merging through wildness.It really struck me how often wildness is something that is, I don’t know, for so many people to be feared, or worse, fixed.Like, if it’s a problem.And yet when I think about plants and how most have shaped me, they’re wild.The ones that have touched me the most are the ones that have allowed me to see them see kin in their wildest forms.Their resilience can grow where they aren’t expected and can adapt without losing who they are.A- and that’s really what I wanna talk about with you today, you know, because we’ve been conditioned to think that wildness means chaos, that being soft or rooted or relational means we can’t also be wild.really, what if wildness is the very core of your relational intelligence, right?What if wildness is actually how you evolve?Or maybe wildness is what you evolve into.So in this solo episode, which is 111, I wanna talk to you about what it means to reclaim your wildness without losing yourself, and I’ll be leaning really deep into cattail and aspen and a few other wild truths that might surprise you, ’cause these are really the things that are touching me in this moment.And I feel like with everything going on, it really is an important aspect for ut- us to truly understand who we are by understanding our inner wildness.So in this episode, we’re going to explore wildness in every aspect, not the kind that’s out of control, but the kind that lives inside of you, right?That kind that’s deeply intelligent and relational and so often misunderstood, that authenticity that comes when you express your wildness.I wanna talk about how we’ve been taught to fear wildness in our, so many aspects of our culture.It’s like this little drip, drip, drip that you don’t even realize you’re receiving on a regular basis that tells you, “Hide your wildness.Don’t do it.Don’t go there.”Or worse, which is the one that drives me crazy, “You’reOh, I had the longest conversation with one of my clients about this just yesterday from the, from when I’m recording this, about this idea that everything is, like, once we get into this state, there’s still something to fix, you’re broken.it was, it was a, it was a really powerful conversation.But what if that wildness isn’t something to outgrow?What if it’s actually who you are, and when you stop trying to be what everyone else expects, that’s what emerges?So in this episode, I wanna explore what that wildness really looks like when you’re living in flow and in your true nature, not someone else’s structure or system.And I wanna show you how to rediscover that flow through movement and presence and how you might find it in your own way, right?Let’s explore what different ways this might come.Maybe it’s through writing or ritual or art or even the way you speak or dress or all of the above, right?So, we’re gonna, of course, be looking to a series of different plants for wisdom, especially because I’ve been working very closely with them and I wanna share some of the insights and also give you some hints on how you too can work with these plants or any other plants of your choosing.Cattail, for example, teaches us that emotional presence without getting lost in the feeling, right?How to, how to flow with those emotions, be a part of the emotions, but not be lost in them.And aspen reminds us that we’re connected below the surface even when we’re trembling on the outside.That strength, that core, that clonal love, these are beings that have so much to show us about resilience and adaptability and staying rooted in who we are even as we move with others, and that’s why I love working with them.It’s an intimate type of work.It’s very different work than some of the work that I do with someone like Gary the silver fir that’s much more-loud, and present, and visible.Cattail is more intimate, and aspen especially, with that quaking nature and those connected roots.It’s all kind of happening below the surface.So I guess maybe one of the most important aspects we’re gonna get to today is how to, how structure, or certain kinds of structure can actually serve your wildness.The idea that wildness doesn’t mean out of control, which I think is what, again, societal norms try to tell us.But instead, wildness is something much m- it’s much more than that.It’s not about boxing it in, but more of giving it space to express itself, to evolve, to feel safe enough to be seen.And because this isn’t really about tearing everything down to feel free, it, I wanna focus on the creating containers that let your wildness bloom, that let your wildness expand and evolve, and that the freedom that comes in that, even while you’re relating to others.By the end of this episode, I want you to feel permission to reclaim your own wildness, not as chaos, but your true nature in motion, to trust that you can evolve through relationship and still remain rooted in yourself.I want you to understand that flow isn’t something you force, it’s something you feel, and that wildness, when it’s honored, is, how do I say this?Let me see.How can I explain it?It doesn’t erase your identity.It actually reveals it.So while movement is the gelt- gateway that helps me, right, find my wi- m- my wildness, umI mean, getting into that, that state, that place that I talk about often that the words struggle, so I apologize for hiccups and misstarts, because this topic, it’s taken me a long time to express, because I think oftentimes when I start to come into the conversation of wildness, for a long time, it would just got ranty about how society doesn’t allow us to be wildness, and we are gonna talk about some aspectsof that.it’s also that wildness w- we don’t really know how to express it, I think.I think we’re, y- you know, we’ve been programmed to see things in wildness as, like, you know, the, the crazy woman, especially, the, the hysteria, the, like, the one that does whatever the fuck she wants, but wildness isn’t really that.And your path may be very different from the way that I have reached my wildness and I’ve tapped into that.So really, that’s why I said I want you to feel permission at the very end to explore it.It might come for you through writing or color or touch or the way you laugh at the exact wrong moment.It might come in something you read that triggers something in you or something you watch or just being.Working with my clients, I get to explore how wildness flows through them in whatever unique form that it takes, and that’s why this is coming about, you know?It’s coming home to what’s already whole, and that’s, I think, the hardest part that you don’t wanna put in th- that I struggle with putting into words, is that we think of wildness, uh, or the expression of our wildness seems like something that’s fragmented or broken or wrong, and in ready- reality, it’s, it’s our wholeness.It’s already worthy.It’s already wildly wise because it’s connected to this thread that is, that permeates through every aspect of your life, from your inner humanness, your inner animalness, your inner plantness, but also probably your past lives, your soul structure, your personalities, your ancestors, your, you know, spiritual ancestors.Like, your wildness is that authentic part of yourself, and so therefore it touches all of that.So this is the conversation I really wanna have with you.So, uh, you know what?Let’s ju- let’s just get into it.But first, I, uh, forgot, I wanna invite you to connect to one of my eco-conscious business partners because, you know, they’re pertinent to the episode as well.If you are on a journey of spiritual growth and personal transformation like I am, then you’re going to love what 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conscious and connected life.Ready to elevate your journey?Click on the link in the show notes to start your free trial today.Trust me, you won’t wanna miss the incredible content waiting for you on Gaia to support your evolving green brilliance.Welcome to Reconnect with Plant Wisdom.I’m your host, Tigiriah Gardeniah, nature inspired mentor, certified life coach, and founder of the Naturally Conscious Community.For over a decade, I’ve been known as a world ambassador for plant advocacy, working closely with plants to share their practical wisdom to help you consciously embody the elements of life that nourish your evolution.In this podcast, I delve into ancient and modern knowledge from biology to spirituality about the wondrous ways of plants.Together we’ll explore how ecosystem thinking helps you overcome limiting beliefs, understand the true nature of relationships, and live an authentic, impactful life.So let’s start with the idea of wildness.In modern culture, wildness gets treated like a problem, something to tame, something to control.Wildfires are threats, uh, wild plants are weeds, uh, wild women are unhinged.Like, wildness does not have a good kind of connotation.It’sBut the interesting part is that wildness, from a nature perspective, like Nature with a capital N, right?The personification of Nature doesn’t see wildness as dangerous.Kin or, you know, the, the beings of Nature see wildness as intelligence, as responsiveness, as essential, right?Because that wildness is that instinct, that, that core essence that knows things.So when I think about my own relationship with wildness, I realize is, that it’s taken me, uh, time to unlearn what I was taught about what’s appropriate, what’s productive, what’s, oh, famous words for me, too much.How many of you feel that?Like, my wildness expresses itself in a way that is very consuming.I’m consuming to myself.I’m consuming in a good way.It likes to consume.It likes to understand.It likes to express.It has all of this.So for so many of us, especially those of us socialized as women, wildness was conditioned out of us super early, right?We were praised for self-control, for calm, for being pleasing and agreeable and, well, yeah, contained, right?Held.But in that containment, we lost something.Or, I don’t know, may- maybe we didn’t lose it.We just kinda tucked it away.I think if we’re lucky, we tucked it away.We put it into a little safe space because deep down inside we knew it was important, and rather than getting rid of it or pulling it out of ourselves, we just sort of hid it away into aI know for me, I feel my wildness most clearly when I move.So for me, movement is how I remember who I truly am.When I dance, especially with my eyes closed, something inside me opens up that no conversation or journal prompt ever could.That’s why when I used to produceSo I used to produce, uh, intentional dance parties.I don’t know if you remember that, but I used to produce these large, large dance parties, and they were all with different types of music and usually with lots of art.And the whole premise of my parties was about stepping into a world and being able to leave the regular world behind so that you could get lost in what was experiencing.And so we always had these deep themes.I had an entire series that was all about alchemical transformation and the different stages, and so the thing was that for me personally, I always used to createThis is the benefit of being the, the producer and especially kinda like the head honcho, I always created a space just for me off to the side of the stage.where no one was allowed to enter.And it was usually cordoned off in some way, and that was my wild space.That was the place where I could move without any kind of worry about bumping into anybody so I could dance.I always danced with my eyes closed when I get into that state.And so, I could just dance and I didn’t think about being judged or contained in any which way.I didn’t even worry about being seen.Sometimes, I, at one time, it was right in the middle of the stage behind the main act because that was the only space we had.And in that space, it’s just me and my body and the rhythm of whatever is flowing through me in that moment that is being guided by the music.I always used to say that I never had to take drugs because the music is my drug, and that really is the way that it is for me.My wildness comes through, much more strongly.In other words, I can hear who I am, I can feel who I am, I can express who I am when I move, when, when my body is allowed to do its thing.And, and it’s funny because sometimes people would come up to me afterwards you can’t imagine how many times this has happened to me.It’s really weird.The last time it happened to me, I was in, I was in Croatia.It wasn’t even my party.I was just, like, I was, uh, my friend had taken me to this, like, club in Croatia, it had the right type of music, it was the right moment for what I needed, and I just put myself off in a corner kind of near where the, the DJ was and I just kind of put myself in a corner and I closed my eyes and I just did my thing, right?And afterwards, somebody came to me with almost like tears in their eyes and they were telling me, they were like, how moved they were by the way that I was dancing, by the, not the way it looked because it’s not about the way it looked, not because it looked beautiful or, or anything but because it felt real.And in an environment, in particular, in that environment where most people are dancing to see and be seen, um, having somebody who didn’t give 3 shits about that but was just like off doing her own thing in the corner for them was just something that they had never experienced before.And I get that, I get that a lot.Like, that for me is wildness, right?It’s not performative.It’s not chaotic.It’s just true.And I feel, I think for me, that’s the, the primer, right?That’s the thing that allows me to get into that state so that I can learn what that state feels like for me so that then when I’m in other places where it might be more difficult to get there, I can feel what I’m, I know what I’m feeling for, I know what I’m trying to get to, the flow I’m trying to experience.Whether I’m in a meeting or I’m in, on a stage or I’m just sitting around with my family and friends having a difficult conversation or having any kind of conversation, that feeling that I get when I dance, that feeling of being in that flow and of expressing my true self, I can tap into and I can then guide it from, or I can be guided from, I guess is a better way of thinking about it, whether I’m writing orspeaking or just hanging out.And, and my plant allies have really helped reinforce this, especially, uh, as I often point to the plant, for those of you that are watching on the video right behind me, right, No Name dracaena.And No Name dracaena has like, really helped with this ’cause Ki still, to this day, doesn’t wanna talk.Ki doesn’t want a label or a name or for us to sit down and have a chat for me to journal about.Ki always wants me to move.And every question I bring, every curies- curie- uh, bleh, curiosity, excuse me, every curiosity I hold, every time I wanna sit and work with this plant or experience things with this plant, Ki meets me in motion, which is really interesting because obviously Ki’s not moving around.But there is a motion.This plant holds a motion and Ki has been showing me how my answers come through my body, how my processing comes through my body, how gesture, and sway, and all those parts of me that don’t wanna speak, even though I am a good speaker and I love speaking, I do process through speaking, but speaking’s not always appropriate.And sometimes, sometimes it’s pacing, sometimes it’s doing yoga, sometimes it’s, uh, you know, speaking with my arms in full motion, uh, sometimes it’s drawing but really exaggerating the motion of my arms, all of that motion.And sometimes it is sitting still, like in the grass, but there’s a movement, there’s a swaying with the wind and with all the other beings that are in that grass, like that’s where flow lives with- in me and that’s where I tap into my wildness.So when I get too far away from it, when I lose touch, that’s where I head.Flow is one of those words that we throw around a lot, especially in coaching and creative spaces, but it’s not always clear what it actually feels like and that’s what you wanna get to.You wanna feel it so that you can pull it up whenever you need it or know and identify and go with it, guide that flow, not get lost in that flow, which I think is the other big mistake that happens.We think we’re supposed to get lost in the flow, flow is supposed to be the guide.No, you are always the guide, always the guide, but you guide the flow, you watch how the flow is moving, how your own expression and your own beingness is in there, how your wildness, that part of you with no censoring, with no anything that’s holding it back.How and where does it wanna go and then how does that fit in relation to- in relationship with others?Flow isn’t ease necessarily, it’s presence, it’s- it’s that quiet clarity that rises when you stop performing and you start aligning with the things that you’re doing, when you collaborate not out of, “I should,” or, “I have to,” but out of, “Wow, this is gonna make it better,” from- from, “I do the right thing because it’s the right thing to do.”It’s your body whispering to you, “Yes,” and before your mind even catches up.Flow doesn’t always look graceful.Sometimes it’s messy or slow or weird even.It comes in really unexpected ways.But when it’s real, you feel it and your wildness comes ex- in expression through that flow, because again, now you’re taking who you are and you’re putting it into relation with something bigger, something outside of you, and that’s that expression.So that’s what I hold space for in my work, right?I don’t give you a formula.I was talking about this recently because we were having a big discussion here in Dom & Her around the concept of communication and relationships in particular and we were a group of facilitators and we were talking about, like, what’s the process to get there?One of the people in the group really, really, really wanted to create a process and I was thinking hard about, like, “What is my process?”Because with every single one of my clients, it is a very different experience, so I can’t just say that I have this one way that I work.And I realized that my biggest process is that space, right?Like, the most important thing I do from the very, very beginning, by having you talk about not just what you wanna accomplish in the work that we do together, but who you are and what are your values and what are the things that are most important to you, is start to create that container, that space in which you can just start to let all your defenses come down, you can start to start- stop s- stop censoring yourself, where you don’t think about or worry about your worthiness or your impostersyndrome or whether it’s gonna work or anything like that.I don’t give you a formula that says, “Do this, then do this, then do this, do this.”I create a container so you can feel your own wildness, your own rhythms, your own inner intelligence start to emerge, and from there we build your worthiness, there we start to befriend that imposter syndrome, and it’s there where you start to realize, “Oh my goodness, it is going to work.I can do this.And I can do it with ease.I don’t need this to be hard.”it’s kind of like the way I used to build that space for myself on the dance floor, right?Creating that safe sacred space, or the way that Dracaena builds that space for me now when I move with Ki.I mean, I struggled at the very beginning, like, “Oh my God, how silly it is.Here I am dancing,” oftentimes to nothing, ’cause I don’t really put music on or anything like that when I move or I dance, but I have noticed in these 2 years that we’ve been working together on this how much more creative I am, how my imagination is, um, has- has found its footing, how much better I interpret and understand things, my ability to remember, my comprehension in creating that kind of space.is, is so important.And here’s the thing that’s interesting about this as I’m sitting and I’m thinking about it, this is where plants live.Like, plants live this way, especially wild plants, which is why that wildness emerges from that.For me, again, it’s movement.For somebody else it might be writing, for somebody else it might be colors and any kind of thing.So you know, it could be anything.What I create in that container is a container that will hold it, that will allow you to explore and find it, trying things that maybe will and maybe won’t work.It’s gonna take time.It wasn’t like this happened overnight for myself, nor does it happen overnight for my clients, which is why I love working long, long term with, you know, individuals that really want to get into it.I’m holding my teacup, you can’t see it ’cause it’s like off screen, but I’ve been holding my teacup this entire time because I thought I was gonna take a pause, but you know me and my talking, I just,Ah, genmaicha.I love it.Anyway.And, and the thing about this is like the reason why plants are so good to work on these types of things, besides the fact that I can’t be with you 24/7, right?But your house plants or any kind of plant ally that you’re working with can be, and you know, can grow this way without any kind of permission.Nobody tells kin that they can or they can’t.You know, as a matter of fact, most people, especially if you’re thinking about dandelions or any kind of like vine, I mean, we try to cut them back.We try to say, “No, don’t grow in that direction.”And they’re like, “Meh, I’m gonna do whatever I want.”They stretch towards the sun unap- unapologetically, you know, they can root where they find support, can move and adapt in relationship to the environment.they never lose their essence, right?That plant always is that plant, not just that species, which I think is something that I get asked a lot.You know, like when you start working with plants, does, do things change?I have right in front of me one, 2, 3, is there only 3 of you now?3 aloes that actually all originally came from the same plant, Vera.All of these are children of Vera.Actually, that’s not true.Hannah is a chil- child of one of the children of Vera.And yet Jaina, Zan, and Hannah all have very, very, very different personalities.Like, they grow at different speeds.Jaina is large and takes up lots of space and wants to be seen, and yet is relatively kind of off-putting.Where Zan is much smaller and much more, um, connected.Like, it’s funny, I’m, Zan is actually, wasn’t originally supposed to live here.Zan was somebody else’s, was given to somebody else but that person asked me to take care of Zan, and Zan has been with me ever since and Zan is much more connected to me.Like, I, I even moved Zan recently from a place where I would see all of Zan to just, I can only see like a little sliver of Zan right now.And yet, I know that connection.I feel Zan’s presence.Zan and I have a really strong connection.Where Hannah is tiny, and Hannah has been tiny for years.I don’t know why because, you know, Jaina, which is technically, I guess, Hannah’s mother, is huge and is, and like I said, Jaina has branches and into all different sorts of directions and is untamed and is unruly.And instead, Hannah’s like, “Bloop, I am gonna be perfectly symmetrical and I am just going to come here and give my presence.”So, so Hannah and I don’t really talk at all because Hannah’s not there, and that’s not what Hannah i- I don’t know, that’s not where Hannah is in this stage in life.And yet they all arrived, well Jina and Zan arrived at the same size that Hannah has today and yet they’re, they blew up and Hannah’s like, “Nope, I don’t wanna do this.”And that’s the thing, right?They can move and adapt, like I said, in relationship with their environments but they never lose the essence of who Key is, of who that particular plant is and that’s what makes them wild.That’s what makes them such powerful teachers.Take cattail for example.Rooted in the mud, always shifting with the water, sensitive, flexible, not weak at all although people would think so.Not only that, like conquered humanity in so many ways.I mean all of us have had some y’know c- a cattail in our hands at some point.Cattail teaches us how to feel without drowning.If you’ve ever worked with spirit wild plants, if you take my Spirit Wild Plant Quiz or if you do the Mini Voyage with Spirit Wild Plants specifically, if you do the spin- the Mini Voyage with cattail, it’s all about getting in touch with those emotions while your feet are in the mud, stable, but your body is swaying in the wind and you can hold your emotions and remain steady while still expressing them without bending or breaking.And I love that about cattail.Like every time I have, about 2 years ago cattail came in really strong ’cause as a matter of fact I- I have an episode of the podcast around cattail because cattail was coming in, not just strong for me but for many different people in that time ’cause you know having the Spirit Wild Plant Quiz I can see when cattail comes up on a regular basis and it was interesting to watch how cattail was coming in and the response I was getting from people and the feedback.And then y’know cattail went off and I was on in a different thing and then just recently cattail was like “Yo, you need me.”Like I am back with a vengeance to be honest and it’s been an amazing ride to realize that, you know, how these wild plants affect me where someone like Jina and Z- and, uh, Zan and Hannah all live with me and so I have one kind of relationship.My relationship with cattail, especially since there are no cattail growing around the area specifically right where I am is very different.It’s very remote.It’s- it’s more um, archetypal than being direct which is very similar to my relationship with aspen for example.Aspens remind us that we’re never just individuals, right?We’re never just this thing that is separate from anybody else, right?They are clonal, they are connected through their roots and every single aspen that you see rising is actually an individual plant but yet really just a clone of the overall system and yet look how different when you look at aspens nearby, they are.So Key’s entire strength comes from that underground connection and that unseen community of roots and supports and all of this connects into this beautiful trembling leaf, right?This idea that even when the wind shakes you, you’re still held and you’re still connected and even as you express and grow and change because your environment is pushing you to do this, you still have a strong foundation similar to what cattail teaches us but where cattail does it from the perspective of my emotions can be grounded and yet fluid, aspen teaches us you’re never alone.You can tremble and express and move and do all these things and know that you are part of something bigger and that your expression has a role in something bigger.That’s wildness.Living that, giving into it, leaning into your personal expression knowing you are held and when I see this come up with one of my clients it’s- it’s- it’s probably one of my favorite moments to see my- my client move one step m- deeper into who they are and slowly step out of that container that I’ve given them and y’know bring their own containerof safeness into the world.This isn’t about being out of control.Wildness is not about lost.It’s about relationship with your environment, with your allies, with your truth.It’s what emerges and what you allow to emerge through the union with others while still always maintaining that core part of yourself.And that brings me to something I really want to underline which is that wildness doesn’t mean giving up structure.You- you- y’know being held is both an energetic feeling but also you can hold that space in many, many different ways and sometimes that comes through structure but a structure doesn’t deny you.It doesn’t filter out who you are.Structure creates a path for kind of again going back to the river metaphor that we talked about with w- that I, that we talked about with Eric which was the river is this own being.This- this water entity that has all this flow and emotions and expression and it moves through the grooves, through the banks and that is the structure that holds, that makes it a river, right?That’s what makes Key a river different than an ocean, different than a puddle or a pond, right?Different than a lake-It is the structure that allows, uh, the water to pick up movement.And so you can think of your wildness like that and you can think of structure as something that guides the flow.And again, you set your own structure so that you guide the flow, whether that’s being super organized because you have to take care of a project, like I’m, I’m right now today, it’s my last day before I go away and so I have a bunch of things to do.I’m super structured today and yet there’s a flow to it because I created that structure myself based on what I needed and the best way to express those wild parts of me, that authenticity, the fact that I’m not being contained.So structure can actually serve your wildness.It doesn’t have to contain it in the sense of hold it back.It contains it in the sense that it allows it to flow fully without overflowing and getting wasted or lost, like that riverbed that helps give that shape to flow, like a dance floor that lets your body move freely, uh, like a container that I create with my clients so that they can feel safe enough to explore all their own little edges.Right?Structure could be a thing that protects your wildness so it doesn’t just get trampled, so that it doesn’t leak out in all kinds of different directions.The key is it has to be your structure.It can’t be anybody else’s structure.It has to be a structure that reflects your own rhythm, your truth, your essence, and what you need in the moment.So even a structure that you put in place in the past might not work tomorrow.You know, I go through long periods where I put one kind of structure in place, maybe a routine that I do every morning or every night, and then I break that, which is what’s happening right now, and I flow because I’m in a different place.And I know that that routine is still good and I will pick that routine back up.I trust in myself.I know that when my body is ready and needs it, my body will call for it again.And, but right now what I need is a little more kindness to myself, a little bit more spaciousness.I need a little bit more, um, we should say I, I need to play with time a little bit more.And those are the kinds of things, for example, we do in Seedling Sprouts, right, inside the Naturally Conscious Community in Seedling Sprouts, which is where we have the Mini Voyage with Plants, where we have the book club, where we have the writing and creativity group.That’s the place where we explore these edges.Right?Those are the places where we, uh, work with other beings closely, like in the Mini Voyages with the Spirit Wild Plants.It’s a place to explore the different ways each one of these spirit wild plants can connect with you, right, the, the watery emotional energy of cattail or the, the deep rest and attunement that comes from purslane and, uh, you know, that big nourishment or the intuitive, uh, intuition, spiritual intuition that comes from chickweed.Right?Each one of these plants has their own way of providing different structures and the Mini Voyages allows you to e- to express that, to play with it in a safe space, the same as our writing group that allows us to, you know, think about different ways of using creativity and the written word to express different parts.Remember, I told you to find your structure, you need to find your structure and this gives you the opportunity to experiencing those types of structures or any kind of structure so that you can see what works for you, to invite you deeper into your own nature so that you can live as kin do, right, aware and present and making the choices that are best for your body, responsive, relational, and most importantly, wild, true to your own true nature.In closing, I, I really wanna leave you withWell, let me think of it this way.I wanna actually pose a few questions to you.I want- I would love to hear and for you to reflect on these.You can, you know, contact me in the Naturally Conscious Community.You can, leaving comment if you’re on YouTube.You can send me an email.Whatever works for you.All right?I wanna know what does wildness feel like in your body?And if you don’t know what it feels like, what are you doing to try to experience it to, to tr- the activi- not activities.I’m looking at all these structured words and they’re not fitting right.Hmm.I really wanna know where are you giving yourself permission to flow?Where is it that you’ve been taught to contain your wildness and where instead today are you playing, not to, uh, playing, that’s really the right word, experimenting with, exploring where your own edges are?Wildness isn’t something you have to chase.It’s been something that’s, it, it’s been there just all along with you.It doesn’t demand that you give up who you are.It asks you instead to become more of who you are through relationship, through sensation, through flow.It’s not always tidy.It’s not always neat and simple.Oftentimes, it gets into the muck, right?I mean, I was bringing up the whole, when I was talking about cattail, the whole idea of flowing in, you know, the stems.But the truth of the matter is that I’ve been down in the rhizomes with cattail.Cattail has taken me when I’ve been like, “I’m going to flow,” and said, “No, you’re gonna swim.”And you’re just gonna sit here in this mucky water of your emotions.And you’re going to multiply them out in every direction like a rhizome so that you really feel every part of it.I’m not letting you, like, flitter away like a fluff ball.I need you to be in this now.So yeah, it’s not always tidy and it’s not always understood, but it’s always real and it’s always yours.So, wherever you might be, that might be the place for you to be right now.And so my question is where might it be the time or the place or the ex- experience or moment to let some of that wildness move again in you?That’s what I wanna know.I wanna know where is that wildness moving?And if it’s not moving yet, how can I help you move it?How do you get into that flow?So if this episode, for example, is something that stirred something in you, if you’re feeling the call to move differently in your life, in your creative work, in your relationships, I want you to- I wanna invite you to take some steps, any step, any step.Remember I told you movement is good.We were just in a meeting this week from when I’m recording this, and we were talking about the need to scream because the book that we’re reading in the Plant Wisdom Book Club, which is, um, The Missing Island of, of Trees, which is fantastic, has- it kind of almost starts, if you’ve ever read it, it starts with somebody who screams, screams.Not like, “I’m gonna scream,” but like screams.And we were talking about how, whether physically or metaphorically, screaming sometimes is so good.So I wanna invite you to take any step, any step.You can start with the Mini Voyage with Your Spirit Wild plant, right?It’s a gentle plant-guided experience to help you connect to that inner wildness in partnership with a plant that best reflects your current inner nature, your current inner world, what you’re experiencing, what you need.There’s drawing and journaling and movement and, of course, a ritual because you know me, I, I can’t do things without rituals.I need, I need rituals.Like they, they help me.They give me containment, right?They give me shape.And all of these are designed to help you feel back into the flow, right?So if you want, you can even take the Spirit Wild Plant quiz if you’ve, uh, if you’re not sure which wild plant you wanna work with to meet the guide that wants to work with you in this very moment.Or if you already know, you can just head straight over to the Mini Voyages.They’re on my website.All the links are also gonna be in the show notes.And if you wanna go deeper, like really deeper, if you’re ready for a more personalized support, then book a discovery call with me.Again, it’s in the show notes, but of course, you can always hit it from my website.Come on, my name is pretty simple and my website is just my full name, sigridardena.com.So it’s pretty easy to find where I am.This is the work I do every day with my clients, helping you create your own container for wildness so you can flow with your true nature in a way that feels grounded and embodied and real.And I love this work so much because in a time in history which unfortunately for women is a time that seems to nevergo away, where we are constantly being told what we can and we can’t do, that we are this and we should be that, and, “You are not allowed to do this, and this is not who you are,” isn’t it beautiful to have one place at least, one place, where you can just be yourself, where you can let your wild self shine?And if you work with me, you don’t even just get one space.You automatically get 2, because I always work one-on-one, and in the Naturally Conscious Community.So you get to experience this wildness in every direction.You get to have me hold that space for you, and where we can really explore it, and flow with it, and play with all the different sides, and the edges, and the center, and everything about it, and you get to work really closely with a group of people who are all doing this work together.And so we get to hold each other and support each other.Remember I was talking about Aspen, right?This is that interconnected root system, while you get to come up as a beautiful trunk and lay your canopy out however it is that it wants to flow, to catch that sun- that sunlight, right?That’s what it is.And so remember, you were never meant to be domesticated.You were meant to grow like kindle, like plants, and you were meant to be free like an animal and like a tree.You were meant to be responsive and relational, like to be in relationship, and yet, at the same time, to be completely untamed in all the best ways that that word holds.So thank you so much for being here with me, with your plant allies, with all of the allies around the world that wanna work with you.And as always, remember theWell, that didn’t come out right.I’m still in that state.I was about to just do my wrap-up, but I’m in this state whereBesides the fact that I’m super emotional right now, um, I’m in this state whereUh, I’ll be honest, I’m fearful.That’s where I am.I’m fearful.I’m fearful that you won’t see it the way I do, not because I’m right, but because those limiting belief bodyguards that we’ve put in place, uh, sometimes hold us back from so much beauty in the world.And I don’t mean beauty as in, like, things that are pretty.I mean beauty as in, like, core, heart-opening beauty.Uh, and I’m always so fearful when I come to the end of an episode that I didn’t say it right, that the urgency to be who you are, to let the world see you, the- the- the deep love I experience, or the deep feelings that are here that I probably can’t put into words, that are why I do this and why I- I wantto hold that space.I- I want you to drain my energy holding that space in all the best ways, which you want, by the way.You want dr- I’m a, I’m a fricking Energizer bunny.Um, I, I just want you to know you can do it.And I’m always fearful when I get to the end, that somehow I didn’t, that somehow I didn’t sh- help you see how amazing you are.I know it sounds so stupidly corny, ’cause I am corny at times, but that’s it.I, I want everybody to shine.I love it.If you- if you ever have the chance to come to Damanhur, and if you ever end up being an initiate, especially in the world, you will- you can ask around.Like, I am your biggest fucking cheerleader.Like, I am gonna cheer you on, because I, I don’t wanna do it alone.I do- I don’t want to.I don’t, I don’t wanna be alone.So when I say what I’m about to say next, please know that it’s coming from the very bottom of my heart, with every single cell in my body giving its maximum.I really want you to resist the urge to hold back your emerging green brilliance, because that is the only thing that’s gonna change the world.Until next time.Thanks for tuning in to this episode of Reconnect With Plant Wisdom.To continue these conversations, join us in the Naturally Conscious Community, your premier online ecosystem for plant reawakening and accelerated evolution and co-creation with otherkin.Here, you’ll find expansive discussions, interactive courses, live events, and supportive group programs like the Plant Wisdom Book Club and the Sprouts Writing and Creativity Group.Connect with like-minded individuals collaborating with plants to integrate these insights into life.Intro and outro music by Steve Schullie and Poinsetta from The Singing Life of Plants.That’s it for me, Tigress Gardena, and my plant collaborators.Until next time, remember, resist the urge to hold back your emerging green brilliance.I’m out.Bye.